Guardian

We have a very strict ‘no phone calls at the table’ policy.  Dinner is a special time when we focus on each other and talk about our days.We were just placing dinner on the table when Rhyan asked, “If we get a call for our foster baby, will you answer it.” 

The phone rang.

Just like that. Matt and I looked at each other and laughed.  No way.  I looked at the number and didn’t recognize it.  The voice on the other end changed our lives forever.  She said she had an infant that needed a place to stay.  She was removing him from his home that evening. 

We told her we’d have to call her back while we prayed about it.  I already had peace in my heart about this little boy, but we got down on our knees as a family and prayed for guidance and direction.  He guided us to say ‘yes’. 

We knew his approximate age, that he was a boy, but we knew nothing else about him.  We didn’t know his race, his circumstances, his name, date of birth.  Nothing. 

We waited a very long time.  I stayed by the phone.  Dinner was completely forgotten. By 8:30, we put the girls to bed and promised to wake them when he arrived.  At about 9:30, we received the call that the case manager was on her way.  The extraction had been violent and she was frazzled.  I was beside myself.

I waited out at the end our driveway and flagged her down.  She was still visibly upset when she walked around to the baby.  Seeing him for the first time was surreal.  Without information, I had no idea who to envision.  Now I was seeing him and he was beautiful.  And sleeping. 

I feel in love with him that night.  I know it doesn’t seem possible, but I also know that through God all things ARE possible.  I pray for his little life every second I think of him, look at him, feed him, change him.  He is cherished and treasured while he’s in our home.  I pray for God’s will in his life, that he will go to the home that God chooses.  But my heart is screaming, “Please, Lord, let it be ours.” 

What I am sure of is that God loves him.  God loves me.  He loves my husband, He loves my children.  And I WILL trust Him.

To this baby in our care, from God,  “I am with you and will protect you wherever you go.”  Genesis 28:15